Questionnaire: Elena Narbutaitė
What brings you energy?
Yesterday I had a chance to work. A Chance, because in this time, it’s not often that one can have the joy of being physically present in a workplace. I prepare and bake bagels on Fridays. It’s a job that takes up a bit of the night and then begins again very early in the morning. After the baking and serving session, I usually feel like a sleeper in the daylight. So yesterday, after the bagels, around 5pm I took time to rest for 40 minutes, laying on the bed and listening to a well-told podcast that a friend forwarded to me. Drifting into a light sleep state, I woke up fully to an excerpt of a Sun Ra voice recording.
A few minutes later, I was standing in the kitchen and for a moment I forgot that there was trouble with coronavirus in the world. I made hot tea and got dressed, getting ready to go to a concert of serious contemporary music. Surprisingly, it still took place. The concert hall was half-empty and listening to the music felt good, like sitting in a rehearsal; people more solitary, each by themselves.
The Concert was over. It was raining outside. I entered the trolleybus and got out on Vingriu street. On the way to a studio where two friends were playing music from records, I stopped to buy a drink. Around 2am, the party was over and we went home. I slept till 12:30pm and woke up calm. Today, I heard the news that one of my brothers has a high temperature, and so on. There is much more energy to think about this now.
Today is good. I can think of people and friends without entering their privacy and without dressing up in their moods as if I knew them. I understand that the ability to stay in my own business and skin gives me energy and allows me to be more useful. I would like to know more about how to keep such energy flowing.
Youthfulness of events. By this I mean the recurrence today of multiple sensations from childhood and adolescent experiences. I noticed that shyness takes one by surprise. It’s still partly a mystery to me.
The last thing that took me by surprise was an exhibition by Suellen Rocca at Secession in Vienna. I think this was my favorite show recently. I was surprised that I liked it. I came in without a clue and walked out knocked by pleasure. It all happened very quickly. I got to know someone I didn't know before. Learning new things, no matter how old, is very often a joyful event to me.
Photograph from Elena Narbutaitė's personal album: woman in a street.
Photograph from Elena Narbutaitė's personal album: painting by Algirdas Šeškus.
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